For many years I depended on others for my pleasure... yes, my sexual pleasure. (As I say that on print, I'm reminded how our society conditions women that it's not okay to love sex or orgasms... or even deserve pleasure.) I took the lessons I'd been learning around my emotional life to my sexual life. No one was responsible for my happiness but me... equally, no one was responsible for my pleasure BUT ME! Thus began my journey into body-discovery... my body pleasure. I dedicated the whole month to loving self-touch and self-pleasure... masturbation. What I discovered about myself that month would change not only my sexual orientation, but it opened my body to functioning as it was created! I awoke deeper pleasure and in turn, I became sharper in what I wanted in life. I became bolder in asking for what I wanted, and I sought out my passions.
Since then, I no longer fear talking about bodies and sexuality. Our societal taboos and prohibitions seems ridiculous to me. Our repression needs spaces to speak out loud what we've been told and a place to release them forever! I'm creating and committing to these spaces in my community. My Meetup meets between 5-6x a month, and the two topics I do monthly are on self-pleasure/masturbation and women's sexuality. They both have been only spoken about in the shadows, and I no longer tolerate superficial, fear-based limits on talking about these. We need safe spaces, and I'm called to create them. I'm changing San Antonio, Texas... one way or another!